Tarot & Angel Cards today

Good Morning 3/11/16

Ya ya sleeping in X boyfriend shirts so what.....

Hanging with Jen

So nice of Jen to come over. We ate dinner colored some mandalas then went to check out some bands play at the roar room. I'm grateful for her friendship and support over the last 5 years!

Inspiration quotes 3/10/16

Goddess inspiration

Bubblehead

Baby email

 I decided I would email photos of the ultrasound to Landan to share with him our baby that we made together (accidently). Below is the email I wrote. It will be the last form of communication I have with him since he's opted out of my life and the child's.

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I saw the baby today.  Healthy baby 134 heart beat. Hormone levels at 66,000. 

So happy, excited and relieved everything is going well.  The moment I saw the little heart beat I was overwhelmed with so much joy. I feel truly blessed to be able to be the home for this little child.

I will respect your desire to not be apart of the child's life if that's what you truly want. I have talked things over with my entire family and I have decided that I will keep the child and raise it myself with the support of my entire family. 

I pray for your continual happiness and mine. I only want the best for myself and the baby, I wish you nothing but peace, light, and love. 

I believe in all the kind and loving moments we had together. I will continue to take care of my health and wellbeing. I hope you do the same. 

I meant everything I ever said to you while we were together. I do love the person I believed you to be. I know things take time and I have been given the opportunity to grow and evolve into a better version of myself and I am in this moment happy and content with my decision.

When the day and time comes for you to make your own choices as a man and biological father of this child. 

I will welcome the communication process but remember that only healthy behavior and communication is all that I am willing to accept in my life. 

I will continue to keep you in my prayers. 

I will not contact you again via email, phone, text or social media. But if you want to talk I would be willing to hear what you have to say. Because in all honesty this child is also a part of you too.   

In loving trust.