I am A woman, Only.

I am ...
A woman
With a full heart, hidden
Somewhere in an empty room ...
With eyes of a chocolate brown;
I wonder ...
If love is a tale made for children --
A granting of sweet dreams in their innocence --
A honey-coating to help their throats
Choke down the bitter draught ...
I hear ...
A voice that whispers warnings, half-formed,
Bodiless as hope, until I swear I cannot draw
Another breath unless this spectre be unmasked,
His lies mangled beneath my righteous tread;
I see ...
A woman, proud, uncompromising,
Diaphanous as air -- less, even, than the tears
That fall in desolation about her weary feet,
Salt poison pooled upon the withered ground ...
I want ...
A measure of quietude, a certain silence,
The echo of alone which heals me of dreaming,
The nothing that stills the wanting,
The numb, the cold that laughs at pain;
I am
A woman,
hidden ...

I pretend ...
That I can live forever -- that Time
Has no puissance but that which I afford Him --
And so, I can wait, I can be happy tomorrow,
Sleep is for the dead; but its ghosts haunt my waking ...
I feel ...
Too much -- too deeply to be directionless,
Too real for imagining, and yet the familiar eyes
Hold nothing of recognition -- only my reflection --
A meeting of shadows in sunlit glass;
I touch ...
The downy wings of hope, in wonder,
In reverence, in need, in hunger;
Alas, it burns my fingers as a flame,
A sacrilege, self-defined ...
I worry ...
That I am alone; that in my longing
I have forsaken all -- but oh, what reward,
What smile divine should light the path to freedom --
And how can I but heed the siren's call?
I cry ...
For having too much, for fear of bursting,
And then, when by the pouring of my soul
I lie, a vessel emptied, I cry again
For what was had, and lost;
I am
A woman,
empty ...

I understand
That life is what you make it,
That sometimes, the coat of many colors
That marks your triumphs brightly, blends only
To loneliest of grey ...
I say
That we are made by life, shaped,
Broken, perhaps -- unmade and voided --
But always, the core of us remains, waiting
With only faith, with trust, to be reborn;
I dream
Of bluest waters, reaching
With unnatural hands toward the faded sky,
Of dolphins that wander in seas without limits,
Carrying me water-breathing past corals and clouds ...
I try ...
To lead by example, knowing
That merely the telling holds no power;
A gift of giving is merely a day, while
A gift of knowing spans forever;
I hope ...
That my darkness holds you gently,
That pain is halved by sharing, that feeling
Wields nothing past the words it summons,
Except that it touch you with only healing ...
I am
A woman,
only.

Between North Carolina & Georgia

Darkness is gone, Awake!

All of my senses are met by the morning
As I awake breathing in a new day,
Here by the window I opened last evening,
How the world changed while I drifted away.

Darkness is gone, though it seemed it would never;
Sunlight is smiling and nature survives.
I can believe that we all live forever
When I observe how the morning arrives.

Birds sing their concert and children are playing;
Flowers have scented the air and it’s free;
Life is renewed and it seems to be saying
There is a place in its promise for me.

There are some times in our lives when we savor
Being a part of a much larger plan.
Life is a feast and we each add a flavor;
I’ll make it better, believing I can.

Mable, Ginger & Me

My Best Friends little ginger and big mable.
I love you my doggies!

Love Tree

My mouse pad.

Farie Bellz

Just existing in a daydream
I was letting time and days pass by
Didn't know what I was missing
Till you came into my life
When I saw you
I was glowing deep inside
When I kissed you
I felt you light my life!

Now I'm flying
I'm on the wings of love
And I know this burning heart
Of fire, knows only you my love.

Holding hands, we walk together
Nothings gonna make us part
You know our love will last forever
It's the song sung in our hearts
Making love, is oh! So sweet!
Lost in each others eyes
As our bodies feel the heat
And passion start to rise.

Because I'm flying
I'm on the wings of love
And I know this burning heart
Of fire, knows only you my love.

In love's dream, I'm so alive
Of time and days, how they fly by
Now, we really know how love feels
I can't help it, I'm smiling all the time
When you're with me
To feel your warmth, here by my side
When you touch me
You bring me joy, I just can't hide.

So now, we're flying
We're on the wings of love
And I know our burning hearts
Are truly blessed from up above.

The Power of Friends

Everyone knows of the power of friends,
The terrific result, when everything blends.
When people have friends, they don’t stand alone;
Friends always help, when you face the unknown.

Friends give you courage to face problems untold,
So the love of a friend can help make you bold.
They can help you to live a much richer life,
So your every day living will be less filled with strife.

Thanks for being my friend!

The Hourglass Nebula

love me the hard way

love me the hard way
want me the wrong way
give into the longing
i'd give it to you
show me what i've been missing
there is a time and a place
i can show you if you'd let me
don't tell me i'm wrong
cause i know you feel it too
do it anyways
you can't see inside my mind
but if you could you would see yourself there
so love me the hard way
what are you waiting for?