i need a sign

my heart is heavy i just want to cry.
there is a darkness that lingers in my mind.
so alone.
i wish i could just make it all go away.
i've lost my hope for a better life.
i'm sad.
i can feel it slipping away and there is nothing i can do to stop it.
it haunts me.
it teases me.
saying this is the life you used to have.
It’s no longer yours.
someone new has stepped in to take your place.
sad to think that i am replaceable.
i want this suffering to end but i struggle to see past my nose.
my heart is heavy i just want to cry.
what if there’s no tomorrow?
i keep wanting to look towards the future but i can't.
it's hard.
she keeps telling me i'm not good enough.
she constantly reminds me of how i've failed her.
i'm afraid that one-day ill not wake up.
and my life would have meant nothing.
why am i hear?
what's my purpose?
why was i born?
all these questions that fill my mind.
i need to sleep.
my heart feels heavy i just want to cry
my heart feels heavy i just want to cry
the more i say it the more it starts to go away.
i don’t have anyone to blame but myself.
i did this to me.
i did this to my own self.
why do i punish myself?
is that what you want to hear?
if i keep on running will i lose myself along the way?
i've never felt this bad in such a long time.
one day the pain will disappear, but today is not that day.
i keep hanging on to nothing.
empty promises.
I’m tempted to throw it all away.
my heart is heavy i just want to cry
my heart is heavy i just want to cry
what am i doing with my life?
there is no love in me anymore.
if there was you would be.
holding me.
touching me.
loving me.
needing me.
wanting me.
craving me.
devouring me.
where has my love gone?
will you return to me?
i dream of a great man.
a man of great enthusiasm.
a man with a gentle heart and mind.
a man who would kiss the ground i walk on.
do anything to please me.
how much longer shall i wait in vain?
will he ever come to me?
i need him.
i want him.
i have to have him.
consumed with all passion.
the nights that seem to go on forever.
my heart is heavy i want to cry.
please god if there is such a man
please send him my way.
i know he is out there he just has not found me yet.
please let the stars align just right so we may but see each other for a brief moment.
i need to feel that hope again.
my heart has been so empty.
so broken for so long.
always giving it way to the wrong man.
help me to see the light.
help me to know that when he comes along in will be right.
i am lost.
i am wandering.
i know i am strong.
i know i am safe.
i know that i can live my life alone.
but i don’t want to.
i don’t want to live my life without having anyone to share in my dreams with me.
there is a way.
show me this path you speak of.
my soul is dark.
where is my light at the other end of the tunnel?
my heart is heavy and i just want to cry.
please i need a sign.
i need a sign.

I’m waiting on a miracle tonight.